One night… Darkness… Loneliness…
I can’t breathe, I can’t feel the air
I fight again and again. I fight until I lose my strength, until I see my emptiness, my void
I fight against the invisible
The invisible is powerful; its strength grows by absorbing my energy
It makes me feel small
It diminishes me
Why fight if it simply takes over my entire essence, all of my feelings, my memories?
What is reality?
What is illusion?
I lose myself in my beliefs…
I am not afraid of death, of disappearing. Nor do I desire it…
Who would care?
I surrender to it because I don’t want to fight any more.
I give up! I give up seeing the light, feeling the air, the warmth, all the invisible love.
I surrender in my entirety.
If you want me, here I am.
I am yours. I surrender in my entirety.
End it. End my pain.